The topic of objective and subjective reality is one that I’m exploring a lot. I mentioned it in my last skepticism post.

Now, the thing worth mentioning about me here is that I’ve grown up with the objective view for so long. That was a main argument to let my inner skeptic agree with going through with these experiments. I know I could bounce back into it just fine if it was necessary. I think, for myself and probably for others, that kind of attempt at a hyper scientific approach to life was a way of eliminating falsehoods.

There is an inherent fear of being wrong to be seen in that. And now that I’ve stepped out of it, it’s a lot more clearly seen. Also I now see the limitations I imposed upon myself as a result.

Changing Woman 3 is about my chosen path of exploring objective and subjective matters. I am primarily viewing my life through three lenses here. The first is from that skeptical standpoint. However, as I said, I’ve been that person for a long time. So I try and let her sleep for awhile. She can use the rest and, even if her view is far too limited for where I’m going now, she can help me communicate on that level as necessary.

The other two parts of me are dedicated to subjective mindsets. These are places that are very strange for me to be within. Both assume that my beliefs can shape my physical reality- To the point that tangible reality is expected to reveal its disconnects as it is explored. The difference between the two is that one assumes that at least some of these other people I see are just as conscious/self-aware as I am. The other assumes that this consciousness that I experience is the only one creating my experience. Meaning, when “you” talk to me, it’s really like an element of this subconscious which I’m experiencing.

If this objective and subjective reality exploration is confusing, then check out that last skepticism related post that I mentioned. There’s also a link to the podcast which started this whole trail.

So there are these three levels within me. I can easily choose which one to tap into. Actually, sometimes it is just habit. I had to back off from some social connections and then come back as a different person in some situations. I’m also just slowly tweaking my experience in other areas.

I think, from the outside, this may seem like a dangerous way of thinking. That’s actually why I decided to take a more cautious and gradual approach. Setting some limits and toeing the water. However, now I feel pretty comfortable that there isn’t any reason to fear an idea. If it’s horrendously wrong, it will show. If it’s a bad idea, resisting it is only going to give it more power.

For the most part, I’m trying to take the more extreme subjective stance and treat this world as sort of a dream in which I’m trying to master lucidity. Certain things ground me to the dream, but I don’t react too fearfully.

I’ve given myself a year _{(there were about eleven months left when I first wrote this draft. nine by now)} to take this as far as I can go. After that, I will more deeply assess the effects.

It’s already been just a great experience in many ways. An eye-openingly crazy one in others. This piece is very abstract. Specifics related to the exploration are forthcoming.

Incidentally, the use of “Changing Woman” in the title comes from an earth/creative/historical figure within Navajo culture. I always liked the translation of the name. This may or may not be an offensive use of the term if you care about such things. An explanation of my relationship to my tribe is something for future blog exploration as well.