How my art has become a big thing in my life.

My response:

I’ve always loved drawing and painting since I was little and it was very natural of me to pursue it in school. After letting go of my “secure” job, I thought I’d dive fully into art, but that actually didn’t happen. A source of resistance in me has been this idea that I *have* to work HARD at art DAILY to be an artist. But all that pressure hadn’t really been working out . . . Growth came with a better and better understanding of the creative power of the universe; I’ve ended up seeing art in everything. So I’m coming more and more to see life as this great work in progress which shows a flow of creativity, regardless of whether I spend 10 hours today painting or put that off in favor of watching porn and eating ice cream.

Of course, once I let go of that pressure it’s easier and easier TO regularly put 10+ hours into art. Oh, Universe. <3

I’m on fire! So excited about the upcoming amazement of Edgewater, wow. I can’t believe how INCREDIBLE 2010 has been (even less than 10 days into it!)

Well, early early on January 8th, I put littlezas.net up again, kinda. It’s still sort of bare bones _{(yay bones!)}- This blog is on the older temporary theme, and I’m hoping to get the main three sections of the site here matching this weekend. I expect I’ll be tweaking the details up until I decide to switch it all again, hee hee.

I just wanted to post so that I get in the habit of showing this blog and my site some love . . . Here’s an alphabetized list of great clips that are currently sustaining me:

•Art of Silent Hill - Fukuro
•Bjork - All Is Full of Love
•David Bowie - Fame (Live by Request)
•David Bowie - Live By Request Moby Phonecall
•David Bowie - Stay feat. Earl Slick (Bowie at the Beeb)
•Obama Does Thriller
•Pomplamoose - Makin’ Out by Mark Owen (Cover)
•Pomplamoose - Mister Sandman by the Chordettes (Cover)
•Wolfsheim - I Don’t Love You Anymore

And, honestly, a crush on an anonymous German BDSM pornstar who always wears a mask . . . –Yes, I’ve been watching hardcore bondage sex on film for aesthetic inspiration.

It’s been a pretty fluid shift since I started my experiment. It didn’t really take long for me to develop a pretty firm belief in a primarily subjective reality. It’s funny though, as I discover this, it becomes obvious that the experience is out there for anyone ready to attract it. Read the rest of this entry »

I’m not even going to both making a “procrastination life” piece. Though that would be kinda funny . . .

Anyway, I have several blog entries written out related to the strange stuff into which I’ve gotten myself. There were several more planned, but . . . I’m not sure what it is. These explorations are more interesting than typing them out, really. And I want to make art related to (/encouraging) growing now, as opposed to confusion.

So, I’m planning to just go ahead and post all the drafts I’ve had sitting around. After I do that, I think I’ll post a summary of a few of the strange things which I haven’t been able to explain since the commencement of all this. Then maybe another post about the things that would benefit me even if I’d ended up being fully capable of saying that “the jury is out.” And maybe just some stuff about my changed respective relationships with the Scientific community and the scientific method . . .

So. Yeah. Ending this procrastination life style post now.

Confident language is hard for me. When I first began to develop metacognition, spirituality naturally became very important to me. At this time in my life, the start of adolescence, I was Mormon. Remember, I was born in Provo, Utah. A pretty strong center for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.

However, as my mental focus encouraged me to deeply interact with whatever belief system I held, this caused me to experience many of its faults. As a result, I eventually dropped the religion. In many ways, this was a very painful experience . . . To the extent that I began to staunchly resist placing any value in faith whatsoever. Read the rest of this entry »

This blog is my art explanation. (This post is my blog introduction.)

Art has been my strongest method of connecting with the world for as long as I can remember. There is no reason for me to distinguish between creative proclivities and my real life experiences. In fact, it is far more rewarding to explore and blur these connections than to draw lines between imaginary definitions. Read the rest of this entry »